Tell us about your early life as a JW:
Well as a raised JW, I pioneered and was a ministerial servant for a while. I got married at 23, (but) things got pretty bad about three or four years into our marriage. We divorced in late 2008, final in 2009. I have a daughter from the marriage, so I don’t regret trying to stick it out after all. No I did not cheat on her in case you were wondering. I used to enjoy playing chess with my brothers, as well as baseball and basketball.
How would you describe your family life while you were a JW?
None of my family speaks to me, and leading up to me leaving, I was being harassed for believing in Aliens, as I began researching the real bible in the cuneiform record from which the Hebrew scriptures are from. Read the lost book of Enki and you will know the real truth. So because I’m reading that and my brother finding out he began to harass me all the time about “only the bible being true” he would walk around saying “Only eight people survived the flood.” Once again see the Book of Enki, yes eight on a ark but they later found survivors in the mountains of Peru. Anyways, I have deep love for my father and older brother, hoping one day the will see the real truth and see that JW.org might as well be the church of Satan after how they treated me.
How would you describe your level of devotion to the organization prior to waking?
I faded for a long time, before that I was kinda happy till I was molested. I was always kind of an out cast, but I cared about them, and still do. I always felt my dedication was to God, mostly was a JW for my family. I had a hard time leaving because of wanting to be someone my father could be proud of. But after I saw the Royal commission child abuse and child sex abuse, I just could not take it any more, because God to me comes first, not men so I told my dad. I hope one day he will wake up so he can be my father again.
If baptized, why did you decide to take that step? If not, why not?
My brother Got baptized so I wanted to also, my parents seemed so proud of my older brother and I wanted them to be proud of me as well. Besides my love for God was very very real.
If born-in, what kind of Jehovah’s Witnesses were / are your family?
My father was a elder for a while when I was growing up.
Are there any particular experiences or circumstances while you were a believer that come to mind now that you’re awake?
Well I think you should look at their early days and ask if what has changed is really just changed in front of you, not what is really going on behind closed doors. I was laughed and reproved because I was molested while passing out by a former Bethelite elder, who then smiled and said “Well he says he did not do it.”
Was your waking up journey sudden or gradual? Describe it for us.
After I was molested I faded for seven years, knowing already that it was not completely true. I felt I could not be party to their blood guilt for all the children that were molested and covered up….
Did you ever have so-called “doubts”? If so, what were they?
Well I read the cuneiform translation of the book of Enki and it turns out the bible is based on that.
Did you share your so-called “doubts” with anyone, and if so, how did it turn out?
Yes, my father, my brother. My father likes his reality where he just stays grounded in the truth. My brother harassed me over it.
Are you currently being shunned / ostracized by any Jehovah’s Witnesses?
My family never calls.
What has changed in your life since waking up?
Well, I take meds for ptsd, bipolar stuff as well, I am in a rehab program. And I play chess more.
What does the future hold for you now that you’re awake?
Anything is possible.
What would you like to say to doubting or questioning JWs who might be reading this?
Ask what a generation is. Ask is there more to the story of man then the bible says. And why would God kill every non-JW when there are lots of good hearted people that love God that aren’t JW’s?
What would you like to say to still-in believing-JW family and or friends who might come across this?
God is love.
Do you have anything else to share?
They are a cult from their beginning to this very day, do the research.
Would you like to provide some form of contact information to potentially help or encourage others thinking of leaving?